BedRest

So in not so many words, I'm on a lenient bed rest order. I VERY much so dislike it at this point. But what am I going to do when the pain starts when I try to do the smallest thing. I can ignore it but then I'm dealing with it pretty severe the next couple of days like I've learned this week.
There's so much going on. I want to be a part of it, but I can only do so much.
I want to know I matter, that the love I have offered up to so many isn't just sitting there ignored. That no matter what happens I'm not going to be forgotten.
I wish I could be there more for some. I might need more help with something than I'm getting, or Sierra might have to pay.
Sierra is such a bright and beautiful young woman. She gets things, she understands, she makes connections even some pretty obscure ones for a three year old. She's brilliant, loving, caring, Motherly, and deserves the siblings she's been begging for that I know now will be a miracle too when they come.
Andrew's to a point where he can sing 'Lead Kindly Light' in his heart. I can too most the time. But right now. Right now I'm praying this pain isn't a sign I need to wait too much longer for Sierra's siblings. And that I can handle being tied down in the mean time.
I'm grateful I'm not alone. I'm grateful that I know I'm not alone. Thanks for letting me be selfish.

2 or 3 Months

So right now, after a couple of days of testing I have no real answers. I probably won't till Monday. But even then, I've seen the results, just haven't heard the Dr's opinion. But last we talked he said he wants me to still take things easy, and not do anything different (included not trying to loose weight) for the next 2 or 3 months. So I don't know what that will bring, but I won't be trying to loose weight anytime soon.

Interesting Things

I have had some.... interesting things happening with my body lately. I went to see the Dr yesterday, he basically said, 'Let's take some tests.' So, for now.... All I have to say is you shall have to wait with me to find out the answers.