BedRest

So in not so many words, I'm on a lenient bed rest order. I VERY much so dislike it at this point. But what am I going to do when the pain starts when I try to do the smallest thing. I can ignore it but then I'm dealing with it pretty severe the next couple of days like I've learned this week.
There's so much going on. I want to be a part of it, but I can only do so much.
I want to know I matter, that the love I have offered up to so many isn't just sitting there ignored. That no matter what happens I'm not going to be forgotten.
I wish I could be there more for some. I might need more help with something than I'm getting, or Sierra might have to pay.
Sierra is such a bright and beautiful young woman. She gets things, she understands, she makes connections even some pretty obscure ones for a three year old. She's brilliant, loving, caring, Motherly, and deserves the siblings she's been begging for that I know now will be a miracle too when they come.
Andrew's to a point where he can sing 'Lead Kindly Light' in his heart. I can too most the time. But right now. Right now I'm praying this pain isn't a sign I need to wait too much longer for Sierra's siblings. And that I can handle being tied down in the mean time.
I'm grateful I'm not alone. I'm grateful that I know I'm not alone. Thanks for letting me be selfish.